I got a low-voltage dose of Holiday Blues today, just feeling out of sorts, restless, wishing I had more money for presents. I've been in pretty good spirits this year and this bout with personal desire sort of took me by surprise. I scurried home to eat a good meal, take a nap, and work on some code. Anything to keep my spirits up and my mind occupied.

Do you feel that way sometimes? It seems to me like everybody must sometimes, but I can never tell. I told a doctor once that my arms fell asleep at night and then I said "but that happens to everyone I suppose." and she replied with eyes slightly wide "It doesn't happen to me."

http://www.theatlantic.com/technology/archive/2011/12/my-failed-attempt-...

I just read the article linked above about a woman who worked at Amazon in 1999/2000, right when I worked at Rocketboard and Lumina in NYC. Brought back so many memories and questions. I remember thinking I'd landed on $7 million in stock options but it wound up being worth $30K, and that was only because I was employee number 3. If I'd been employee number 10 or even 7 the stock was worth nothing. But I was part of something. Part of something amazing. I'd do it all again.

I have to go write code. The new Indie Band Manager is almost ready, I need to push through and get it shipped.

Attached song is from that era... recorded in Austin in 2004.